Miss Kelsey's apprehensive (that means nervous)

The episode of "Full House" where Jesse and Rebecca find out they are going to be having twins is probably one of my top five quotable episodes of "Full House," mainly due to the root of the title for this post. Basically, Jesse is freaking the heck out because he's going to have two babies, and tells Michelle that he's apprehensive, and when she doesn't know what that means, he tells her it means nervous. The whole family finally finds out that "UNCLE JESSE'S APPREHENSIVE, THAT MEANS NERVOUS." Yada, yada, yada, you've all seen the episode. Anyhow I use that phrase more than is probably socially acceptable now, but it makes an especially clever-ish title for the post that is about to follow, so buckle up and get ready for the ride (it's not really going to be that exciting but I have to talk it up, it is my blog after all.)
So yes, I'm sitting here at 8:15 on a Saturday morning with feelings of apprehension and nerves? Kelsey, why are you nervous you ask? Well, it all starts with the most mentioned person on my blog in the last two weeks, Guy. He and I are hanging out tonight for really the first time since everything has gone down, gotten super awkward, made me sad, then started to get "normal" again. (I promise I'm not obsessed with Guy, he's just been, well, a major part of my life happenings lately. Get over it.) I can't really explain why I'm so nervous for us to hang out. I know one part of it is the fact that we are going to the same concert that we went on our first date too. That's probably the majority of the "weird" vibes I'm kind of feeling about it in all reality.
I'm more apprehensive about how I'm going to be throughout the night. I've gotten to a point where the majority of my sadness, bitterness, whatever is mostly gone about the situation, mainly because I did the grieving thing and being bitter about it isn't going to change what happened, so why waste my energies? But I'm apprehensive that being with him, just the two of us, hanging out like we used to do ALL THE FREAKING TIME is going to bring those feelings back, because the dynamics have majorly changed since the last time we hung out, and the last time we went to this concert specifically. The way I'm seeing it there are three possible outcomes for this evening:
1. I'm going to be fine, we're going to hang out and talk about random crap like we always have, and we'll both have a really fun night spending time with one another.
2. I'm going to come home and sob my eyes out yet again because he didn't want me to be his girlfriend.
3. I'm going to get super bitter halfway through the evening and barely want to talk to him or look at him and things will be real weird during the ride back to SL.
Now, I'm hoping that outcome number 1 is the one that prevails, because I'm sick of crying and being bitter is just a waste of energy. I'm at a point where the sadness is gone 90% of the time, but I would be lying if I didn't say that this evening could be one of the instances in the 10% where it comes creeping back to haunt me. I guess we'll just have to wait and see what happens. I was equally as nervous the first time he took me to this concert, but for a whole different set of much happier reasons.