If you've never watched One Tree Hill, this title and this picture mean absolutely nothing to you. But those who have watched the show immediately think of the artist: the dark, damaged girl that is Peyton Sawyer. She is the quintessential example of the girl who seems to have everything she could possibly want, yet she doesn't. Peyton gets left by a lot of people in the show, and I'm not going to spoil that for those of you who have been living under a rock and haven't watched the show yet (seriously though, all 9 seasons are on Netflix, go watch it, it will change your life.) I didn't feel like I could relate a lot of Peyton Sawyer because I saw a lot more of Haley James Scott in myself (#tutorgirl) but this is the one thing I think I can agree with Peyton Sawyer on. People always leave. It's crazy how people can just walk in and out of your life, never staying, or leaving the role they once fulfilled for something that isn't nearly what you expected.
People leaving my life is something I've grown used to. My family (I'm talking extended family here) walks in and out of my life when it's convenient for them, people I went to school with for twelve years stopped caring about our friendship the day we got those high school diplomas, and people I've met at college don't think I'm "fun" enough to be around, so they walk out of my life too. I'm not going to put all the blame on them, because if I cared enough about having them stay in my life, I'd try a hell of a lot harder to keep them there, but what's the point, when people always leave anyway? I don't like to think I'm a cynical person, but this is one topic where I'm really cynical. Why should I waste my time and energy getting to know a person, telling them things I don't like to talk about, becoming reliant on their support and advice, when they are just going to leave? Even if they are still a part of your life, once they choose to fulfill some new role, it's like they left anyway. Why bother getting close to someone when you know that they're just going to leave, and become more like a stranger than a friend anyway?
I guess the one bright spot of hope is that once in awhile, you find someone who won't leave. I just don't think I've found enough of those people yet.
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